Differentiation & De-differentiation

To want and to need are two different things
I know this but when it comes to you
I struggle to differentiate
I love you but I hate you as well
I'd die for you but then again I wouldn't
A wish come true would be me never meeting you
But then again....I might not be the woman I am today
Longing for your kisses, your gazes, your touch
Not longing for your insensitivity and semi-stupidity....
To want and to need are two different things
I know this but when it comes to you
I struggle to differentiate
Love is Love... But reality is indeed REALITY!
I'm almost certain that you wouldn't die for me (yes that's how I feel)
In this life...I've learned nothing is worth regretting.
I wish I could say the same for you in 10 years.
Then you'd be longing for my kisses, my gazes, my touch
Regretting your insensitivity and Total Stupidity!

My Life Part 1: The Value of Air~~~~~

My Life Part 1: The Value of Air~~~~~: Air.... We breathe it in our sleep While we sit, eat, play, walk.... Air...... We need it in the heat the cold, the rain, the snow Air...

The Value of Air~~~~~

Air....
We breathe it in our sleep
While we sit, eat, play, walk....
Air......
We need it in the heat
the cold, the rain, the snow
Air......
Just like food and water
we need Air to survive...
To Live, Dance, even Smile....
Air.....
is Life
Life....
is Air
In my Life I take nothing and no one
for granted because I know
each second that passes by
is a gift
a priviledge....
not promised
only given!!!
Sooo sooo many I have loved and lost
Just because Air~~~
was no longer theirs....
All I'm saying world is...
VALUE every second that you make it through
Cherish every moment that you get...
You never know...you never know....
What and Who could go next...
Could be me, you, you, or even you....
If it's me...I'll know I told you all
I Care and I appreciate you...
In return...appreciate Air~~~~~

Put Yourself First

I've always been the one....
To Place everything and everyone
Ahead of myself....
I always enjoyed seeing others happy
but ended up wondering why I felt so crappy...
Now waking up in the mornings...
I tell myself it's about me...
I say no to what I want...
And I accept whatever I please....

For the first time
In a very Long time...
I am at peace with myself...
Nothing is perfect
but I am worrying about myself....
I had to learn
No matter how much people say
they care
they always care about themselves more
I Love Myself and I Love My Life
I Love My Imperfections...
I Love My Smile, My Eyes...
If you love them all then you Love Me...
I'll gladly tell you I Love You Too!!!

What's Holding Me Back or Rather Who?

I woke up today and I thought to myself...
If I am unhappy about something...
I have to change that because nobody else will...
To others My Life might be perfect...
But here I am to tell you Nothing and No one is Perfect!
I have a lot on my mind and on my chest...
This surely cannot be HEALTHY!!!
In conjunction with that...I Eat instead of Crying...
Emotional Eaters know what I am talking about...
Yesterday I looked in the mirror...
I saw what I am...
Yet I saw what I could be...
What I once was...But Better!
I fell in Love with that Me...
and I want to meet her in person...
So Today I went back to the Mirror...
I said to myself...
"Hey Maria in there! I'll see you by 01-01-2012"
That's a promise and I will see me as who I want to be...
On or Before that Date...
"Our Biggest Obstacles in Life are Ourselves"
I'm tired of living the way I am...
Well the way I was....
It's a new day,hour,minute,second...
The old me is gone and the new me...
Is on her way OVER HERE!!! <3<3<3

SOME BASICS... by Maria Domenica Tavera on Sunday, July 12, 2009 at 11:34pm

This is just a random piece.... 
I've been doing alot of thinking and i came to a conclusion.... 
Life is life...you take what you get and you get what you give... 
Ups and downs & round n round.... 
it never ends soo we have to learn to work with it.... 
Complaining and whining doesnt solve nothing... 
Tossing your problems behind you doesnt help you in anyway either... 
Life's full of stress n it depends on the individual n how they can handle it... 
Love is a game...U either win or u loose...its dat simple. 
U either trust or u dont trust... 
If u dont trust, u'll never know...u'll be out before anything happens, u wont get hurt! 
But then again, if u do trust, u might get hurt...Its a 50-50 thing... 
Family are the only people that stay by ur side no matter wat happens... 
Dont toss ur family to the side for any reason bcos if ur friends disappear guess who's gon be there? 
Yeah....."blood is thicker than water" That aint no lie.... 
Another thing, treat everyone around you like you would want to be treated... 
You're not better than him or her, you got the skeleton in ur closet too! 
You might wear the true religion & the polos now.... 
but u dont know wat tomorrow holds in store for you... 
Dont look down on others...becos u dont want anyone else looking down on you... 
If you judged someone while they lived, then stick to ur judgement wen they die... 
Dont be a HYPOCRITE....they dont get too far... 
APPRECIATE ME while i live, becos wen i'm gone i dont know if i can hear u n wat ur saying... 
LIVE LAUGH & LOVE N DO IT WITH THE PEOPLE YOU CARE ABOUT WHILE YOU CAN.... 
This isnt much but its just enough... 
ONE LOVE!!!

It's a brand new year...but are you new? by Maria Domenica Tavera on Friday, January 2, 2009 at 2:29am

Here we are...finally its 09,i've been waiting!!! 
But have you ever wondered what's gonna be different from last year? 
2008, we all went through some stuff...I personally went through alot. 
Those close to me know i made some good decisions 
and i also made some awful decisions. 
Some caused me pain & from the rest i gained. 
I made alot of mistakes as well, learnt from some and still learning 
from a couple & from others i might never learn. 
I changed alot in 2008, grew up & woke up to face reality... 
It was hard but i did it & alot of you out there need to do d same. 
I lost a couple of people that meant alot to me... 
Some passed away as for others, we just grew apart... 
But that never meant it was the end of the world. 
People come & people go just like the seasons in the sun 
never the less we have to push for tomorrow 
to make sure it becomes brighter & better than yesterday... 
In my 2008 there were a lot of negative forces around me, 
most of which, i created for myself by myself 
i was constantly mad, depressed & frustrated. 
I barely smiled & i hardly laughed ... 
The happiness that once existed within me was stolen... 
I knew this was happening but i often found myself in denial. 
The good thing is, i accepted my faults & realised that 
the only person that could help me find my happiness 
was me. 
I promised myself that 2009 would be the beginning of a new me 
& a new me would change & brighten up my world. 
I left all my burden and pain in 2008 & shut the door behind me. 
Its history and that's what it'll always be to me. 
I feel restored and free...now i can breathe 
I have alot of goals set for myself this year & plan 
not only to achieve my goals but to overachieve them 
"Shoot for the moon even if u miss, u'll land among the stars" 
That's my motivation for this year... 
I have alot ahead of me and the journey's just begun... 
I've got a new me & my new year planned!!! 
I hope you do too???!!! 
Even though it might mean letting go of someone or something 
that you care about sooo much... 
If it'll make you be a better you... 
Toss them behind you, never look back 
And head for your breakthrough!!!